well...anyways nothing major has really happened. I mean this is what seems to be the little break inbetween major things in my summer...i'm all done with camps. And now just hanging with friends, but soon i'll be going to the fair and everything with my friend Adela. So ya. But for now everything is pretty mellow...and i like it that way. (for now) But no i am so proud of myself i mean i look back at this past year and honestly i have learned so much! And it's great. I mean alot of what i went through most of you don't know about...but it was an...interesting year i guess you could say. But i mean i just know that i've grown so much in christ. and i am soo happy with my self. For one...my slef confidence is up and running now...because for a long time it wasn't. Acctually i was extremely deppressed. Most of you didn't know it though. but God has helped me over come that. I mean i have finally relalized how stupid it was for me to let other people set my standards. Of how i should look, be, act, and everything. I mean what makes anybody better then me ....nothing. They are just like me...so instead i looked to God and he told me i am perfect the way i am. And now i feel good about myself and it's really nice!! But i mean other stuff has happened to...but i won't get into it all. But lately i am just going on a role...and i have just been talking to so many of my friends about christ...and everything. I mean i was talking to maria about it before camp...and as you have heard in my previous post...that she got saved....and i was talking my friend britt, and then she got saved...and i have been talking to my friend Willie...whose is a christian...but is sorta lost about how everything works..and i help her whenever she needs it...and i've just started talking to my one school friend Hanna about it because she really needs it! and i mean all these things and i am just so proud of myself because honestly i don't think i would have been doing this ...a couple of years ago...i mean i did to my close close friends...but even then i wasn't that great at it. And i don't know i just feel so happy and good about where i'm at right now. idk how to explain it. I mean this year i finally put away this hurt in my life that i have had...for well my whole life..and i won't get into it all too deeply...put some people had hurt me...and i mean they were jerks...and i never really got over it...i mean ya i said i did...and i really did try but i never did...and i started almost holding a grudge in my heart...which weighed me down..and acctually...it turned into hate for those people. Which is really sad to say. and i went on like that for like i said basicly my whole life. I was angry and hurt, and confused...and then finally i gave it to God i mean it all kinda boiled down to me not giving everything over to him...which is what he wants us to do. even then i held on to just a little of it..which was still wrong...but this year i have finally put it to rest...and i feel happy...truely happy, and at peace and it just made everything else in my life so much easier and better and more fun!! I mean i have forgiven them comepletely...and honestly...i kinda want to try and help bring them to christ (although they already think they are...it's a really long story) but i mean i just feel like God has given me a burden to try and help other people...i mean there are so many...but at the same time..by struggle is you can't make anyone change or believe. It's a choice that they have to make...but i know that everyone has the ability to change!! So i still have hope...in the end i leave it to God and that person! Well that's all for me right now! Pray for me..and know that i pray for you guys!
I love you all so much,
Your baby sister (who isn't so much a baby anymore)
Patty
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